Dear Earth, i'm sorry...

i don't know where it came from... but... i started thinking a lot about the Earth today.

I guess it began with my trip to the gas station. So, i was standing there pumping gas... and i started thinking about all the different types of fuel we were talking about in my Creative Minds class... Ethanol.. Biodiesel... Electricity.. Solar.. Wind.. yeah yeah yeah... and then i thought, ok, so say everyone suddenly decided that they want to purchase an electric car, or a plug in hybrid, or whatever... and then i though, well, what about all the cars that they ALREADY have?... that would be A LOT of trash. WAYYYY too much trash... and then, by building those new electric cars (or whichever they decide to buy), we'd be bringing in so much MORE material, MORE garbage... and so, the answer of course, can't be to merely go out and purchase a more eco-friendly vehicle... but then it's like.. okay... what's left to do? purchase a bicycle? walk? take public transportation?.... unless our culture decides to SLOW DOWN, those things won't really work out well for our culture.. we're too dependent on convenience for that.. and so... we would have to totally reconstruct our culture. yes. that's what we need.

This got me thinking about garbage.
It's ridiculous.
And i know, i know, i've learning about this sort of thing for a while now, but, i don't know, for some reason, it just CLICKED today... it's like... i could finally SEE it, i could finally PICTURE it. it's so sad.

Why are we doing this to our world? i mean, WHY would we go out and buy things that we know our world can't possibly sustain. It's makes no sense. And it's SO REAL; it's a wonder that we can't FEEL its realness.

It makes me so pissed off that our culture is driven by STUFF... by material possession. it HAS to stop. The world isn't going to suddenly start growing and growing in order to give us more space until we realize how stupid we're being by producing and consuming so much.

I just don't understand.

it's obvious that we produce more than the Earth can sustain.
and yet, we're not anything about it. i mean, yeah, SOME people are =) .. but not ALL...

What is it going to take to get everyone to just STOP?

i don't know the answer to that question.

But i DO know that i can try to stop...

i've already began limiting the amount of things that i buy... but i feel i need to take it a hundred steps further... put even MORE effort into it... the earth can't afford for me to just slowly ease into become more environmentally friendly.. it needs me to hurry the hell up.

I mark this day as the beginning of my journey to becoming more Earth friendly.