Rosario Dawson is gorgeous =]
will smith is cool too, hah.
but anyway... it was a pretty cool movie... and even though i could totally tell what was going to happen, it was still good. pretty sad too =[
worth $10.50
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
win win win.
i saw Seven Pounds yesterday.
Rosario Dawson is gorgeous =]
will smith is cool too, hah.
but anyway... it was a pretty cool movie... and even though i could totally tell what was going to happen, it was still good. pretty sad too =[
worth $10.50
Rosario Dawson is gorgeous =]
will smith is cool too, hah.
but anyway... it was a pretty cool movie... and even though i could totally tell what was going to happen, it was still good. pretty sad too =[
worth $10.50
Friday, December 12, 2008
girl's night out.
so.. today at work, we had our first "girl's night out." All the female staff members (there's 5 of us) went out with the 5th and 6th grade girls to the mall/movies. it was pretty fun... and interesting. lol. but anyway... we ended up watching Twilight with the kids. prior to tonight, i really had no interest in watching it... but, it actually ended up being better than i thought it would. I can't say that i think it's a "great movie," because, well, frankly i don't think it is... but there are certain aspects about it that i really did like.
We all know that when it comes to reading books or watching movies, the reader (or viewer) intreprets things differently than someone else... we all see our own little stories within the story that's actually written... so... i totally saw things in that movie that probably don't even tie into it all... but they did for me. hah. lol.
i like this part (you can barely see it though, i know the video's crappy but it's the only one i could find)... the vampire guy and the girl have their first kiss..and it starts getting all passionate or what not.. and it LOOKS like the kissing about to lead to touching... and eventually sex, but RIGHT when it seems like it's really starting to pass the boundary line of kissing for love and kissing for lust, he STOPS. he forces himself to and says "i can never lose control over you." ... he says that he's "stronger than he thought," implying that it takes STRENGTH to have self control. then he goes on to half sitting up half laying next to her in bed, and TALKING to her, having a CONVERSATION with her. he's close to her, but there's no sex. and i just loved that. it shows self-control and true relationship development. THAT's how you get closer to someone, you TALK to them, and have CONVERSATIONS with them... you hold off on the sex part until you actually KNOW eachother pretty well and have BEEN THROUGH things together. you don't just rush into it.
it's like... the whole movie can be intrepreted like that. it's about this family (of vampires) that restrain themselves from "being evil monsters." ... they train themselves to stop doing something that they love and yearn for because they know the outcome of it is really bad (killing people.) and it's like... a message telling us that we should learn to restrain ourselves from things that cause pain or negative energy to ourselves and those around us. This family puts THEIR OWN values before the values and ways of their species... they stray away from the "norm" of their species in order to make a positive change for themselves.
haha, anyway... i feel like i'm going to start going off on a tangent here... so i'll end it here.
<3
We all know that when it comes to reading books or watching movies, the reader (or viewer) intreprets things differently than someone else... we all see our own little stories within the story that's actually written... so... i totally saw things in that movie that probably don't even tie into it all... but they did for me. hah. lol.
i like this part (you can barely see it though, i know the video's crappy but it's the only one i could find)... the vampire guy and the girl have their first kiss..and it starts getting all passionate or what not.. and it LOOKS like the kissing about to lead to touching... and eventually sex, but RIGHT when it seems like it's really starting to pass the boundary line of kissing for love and kissing for lust, he STOPS. he forces himself to and says "i can never lose control over you." ... he says that he's "stronger than he thought," implying that it takes STRENGTH to have self control. then he goes on to half sitting up half laying next to her in bed, and TALKING to her, having a CONVERSATION with her. he's close to her, but there's no sex. and i just loved that. it shows self-control and true relationship development. THAT's how you get closer to someone, you TALK to them, and have CONVERSATIONS with them... you hold off on the sex part until you actually KNOW eachother pretty well and have BEEN THROUGH things together. you don't just rush into it.
it's like... the whole movie can be intrepreted like that. it's about this family (of vampires) that restrain themselves from "being evil monsters." ... they train themselves to stop doing something that they love and yearn for because they know the outcome of it is really bad (killing people.) and it's like... a message telling us that we should learn to restrain ourselves from things that cause pain or negative energy to ourselves and those around us. This family puts THEIR OWN values before the values and ways of their species... they stray away from the "norm" of their species in order to make a positive change for themselves.
haha, anyway... i feel like i'm going to start going off on a tangent here... so i'll end it here.
<3
Thursday, December 4, 2008
with WIDTH comes no DEPTH.
mmmm... i had a conversation with a friend last night.
it started out talking about church and my faith. she's the main leader for the youth ministry i volunteer for... and i had told her that i no longer feel as though i should be a leader for the ministry because i feel that i'm there for the wrong reasons. for selfish reasons. i've been struggling with and questioning my faith for almost a year now.. and it's like... how can i minister to these kids when i don't even know what i believe in? it's like offering someone dinner when you don't even have any food to give. so anyway... we started talking about why i don't believe anymore... and all that.. but... somehow we got to the point where i confessed another one of my biggest fears/obstacles. I've known it to be a problem for quite some time now.. but i never said it outloud until last night =/
basically. i'm scared of commitment (to almost ANYTHING) and concrete ideas. it's like.. i use to be so stuck on God and on Church... on Jesus and Catholicism.. because of my Confirmation class i started going to junior year.. it was a NEW faith for me.. it was a NEW way of thinking and living.. i was LEARNING.. and i love learning. but you know, to make a long story short, 3 years pass... and i'm presented with NEW ideas, other NEW ways of thinking and living. I got scared. I started asking myself, what if Catholicism is bad? what if it's just NOT for me? i was exposed to a few wonderfully amazing people (some Catholic, and others not), and i started thinking about the NONcatholics who were amazing... i figured, if they're so wonderful and so happy WITHOUT being Catholic, maybe i could be too. I'm scared of making the wrong choices and decisions. I was scared of devoting my life to this faith at such a young age.. i didn't want to be "stuck" on that way of life... It's like.. i wanna expose myself to A WHOLE BUNCH of different ideologies and ways of thinking... and see which one suits me best... which on makes me the happiest.
But anyway... i answer a lot of questions with "i don't know" because... i simply don't know.. and it's bad sometimes... because people won't accept i don't knows. this world will not allow me to say I DON'T KNOW. i will never succeed answering the world's questions with I DONT KNOW. in this world, i NEED TO KNOW where i stand... what i want.. etc. or so it seems. and it's so hard for me. i'm scared of hypocrisy (although i acknowlege that we are all hypocrites).. i'm scared of telling myself that certain things are right and certain things are wrong OVER AND OVER again until it's nearly impossible to think otherwise. i want to stay open minded. but... i think it's possible to be TOO open minded. for example, i'm so EASILY lured.. so EASILY influenced about certain ideas an beliefs (sure, i'll always think murdering is bad, i'll always think drugs are bad, etc.. but with other things, i don't have a firm stance)... i need to develop more concrete beliefs.. so that i can stand up what i believe in. ahh. i'm such a ball of confusion right now...
i've been told that with WIDTH comes no DEPTH. i can TRY to do many things at once... live many lifestyles... pracitce different faiths.. carry out different ideologies... or what not.. but the more i put on my plate, the wider the set of things will become.. i'll never be able to MASTER anything. whereas, if i pick one thing, and focus on it, live it, learn it, i'll be able to add and add on to it.. it'll have depth. and yes, i want to be a "deep" person. hah.
sorry if none of this made sense. i just felt the need to go on a ramble about this subject. writing, in so many ways, is my form of communicating.. speaking.. thinking etc.
it started out talking about church and my faith. she's the main leader for the youth ministry i volunteer for... and i had told her that i no longer feel as though i should be a leader for the ministry because i feel that i'm there for the wrong reasons. for selfish reasons. i've been struggling with and questioning my faith for almost a year now.. and it's like... how can i minister to these kids when i don't even know what i believe in? it's like offering someone dinner when you don't even have any food to give. so anyway... we started talking about why i don't believe anymore... and all that.. but... somehow we got to the point where i confessed another one of my biggest fears/obstacles. I've known it to be a problem for quite some time now.. but i never said it outloud until last night =/
basically. i'm scared of commitment (to almost ANYTHING) and concrete ideas. it's like.. i use to be so stuck on God and on Church... on Jesus and Catholicism.. because of my Confirmation class i started going to junior year.. it was a NEW faith for me.. it was a NEW way of thinking and living.. i was LEARNING.. and i love learning. but you know, to make a long story short, 3 years pass... and i'm presented with NEW ideas, other NEW ways of thinking and living. I got scared. I started asking myself, what if Catholicism is bad? what if it's just NOT for me? i was exposed to a few wonderfully amazing people (some Catholic, and others not), and i started thinking about the NONcatholics who were amazing... i figured, if they're so wonderful and so happy WITHOUT being Catholic, maybe i could be too. I'm scared of making the wrong choices and decisions. I was scared of devoting my life to this faith at such a young age.. i didn't want to be "stuck" on that way of life... It's like.. i wanna expose myself to A WHOLE BUNCH of different ideologies and ways of thinking... and see which one suits me best... which on makes me the happiest.
But anyway... i answer a lot of questions with "i don't know" because... i simply don't know.. and it's bad sometimes... because people won't accept i don't knows. this world will not allow me to say I DON'T KNOW. i will never succeed answering the world's questions with I DONT KNOW. in this world, i NEED TO KNOW where i stand... what i want.. etc. or so it seems. and it's so hard for me. i'm scared of hypocrisy (although i acknowlege that we are all hypocrites).. i'm scared of telling myself that certain things are right and certain things are wrong OVER AND OVER again until it's nearly impossible to think otherwise. i want to stay open minded. but... i think it's possible to be TOO open minded. for example, i'm so EASILY lured.. so EASILY influenced about certain ideas an beliefs (sure, i'll always think murdering is bad, i'll always think drugs are bad, etc.. but with other things, i don't have a firm stance)... i need to develop more concrete beliefs.. so that i can stand up what i believe in. ahh. i'm such a ball of confusion right now...
i've been told that with WIDTH comes no DEPTH. i can TRY to do many things at once... live many lifestyles... pracitce different faiths.. carry out different ideologies... or what not.. but the more i put on my plate, the wider the set of things will become.. i'll never be able to MASTER anything. whereas, if i pick one thing, and focus on it, live it, learn it, i'll be able to add and add on to it.. it'll have depth. and yes, i want to be a "deep" person. hah.
sorry if none of this made sense. i just felt the need to go on a ramble about this subject. writing, in so many ways, is my form of communicating.. speaking.. thinking etc.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Dove =]
i love Dove's Real Beauty Campaign =]
even though it's "old news" now. =P
and at the same time, i know, it's like.. who am i trying to kid? i mean, i KNOW that i have certain standards of beauty.. i know i do.. and i hate that i do.. it's just so hard to steer away from it you know?... but i have, a couple of times =] and i hope that i continue to do it more often in the future.
it's a real shame that the media and society has written out the definition of beauty for us... rather than let us think and feel on our OWN.. it's a shame that most of us (including myself most of the time) are blinded from beautiful things and beautiful people... we'll never be able to see all the REAL beauty within our world...
i'm making a pledge to myself.. to redefine beauty. will YOU?
even though it's "old news" now. =P
and at the same time, i know, it's like.. who am i trying to kid? i mean, i KNOW that i have certain standards of beauty.. i know i do.. and i hate that i do.. it's just so hard to steer away from it you know?... but i have, a couple of times =] and i hope that i continue to do it more often in the future.
it's a real shame that the media and society has written out the definition of beauty for us... rather than let us think and feel on our OWN.. it's a shame that most of us (including myself most of the time) are blinded from beautiful things and beautiful people... we'll never be able to see all the REAL beauty within our world...
i'm making a pledge to myself.. to redefine beauty. will YOU?
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