so many problems.

today,

was such an emotional day. and it's not even close to ending yet.
So i'm sitting on the couch, crying and thinking about a situation that happened today... and i decide to turn the t.v. on... somehow i start to watch this movie called "Wah-Wah"... and the main character of the movie is this pretty cool teenage boy. He cries a little too, because of a situation HE is having... and i started thinking about how many people are crying this very second, or how many people are angry, how many people are sad, how many people feel hopeless, restless, or like they just can't take it anymore... all in this very second. i mean, what's the world population? 6? 7? billion...somewhere in between the two? Whatever, basically, there are a lot of people...

and i,
i,
am a VERY fortunate person.

I shouldn't really have much to complain about. And living the life that i'm living... i should be able to be helping out.. a LOT.. for the greater common good. And for a while, i did feel like i was being helpful... i was volunteering a lot... 3 days out of the week... and it felt good. but i haven't been doing much volunteering lately. and i'm not saying that volunteering the the ONLY way we can be helpful... there are lots of ways...all i'm saying is..

i want to be helpful. i want to help people in need. i want them to be able to be okay with life. we all have the same potential... we all START OUT with the same potential.. it's just that, sometimes we lose sight of our potential because of the things we have to go through in life. and it's funny, i mean, it's not like we get to really chose what life we're brought into.. like, what part of the world we're born into, or what family we're born into, what race, what class... we're sort of just..BORN. but anyway, i want to help. & i have to stop wasting so much time. there's a lot to be done.

there're people in need of a smile, people in need of a hug, people in need of hand, people in need of a push, people who need to be left alone...
there are places to be...
moments to be a part of...
things i am meant to be doing.

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